About Me


My name is Vance. I became a prodigal and agnostic that had walked away from God. Taking the name Ronin, meaning “masterless samurai”, I focused on my own self-perfection trying to become my own ‘god’. Then everything fell apart when tragedy struck, and I had to face the realization that I was powerless and petty. Pride did go before the fall.

Like the Prodigal Son, I began a long, bumpy, journey back. Walking through the valleys of trauma, grief, introspection, and a heavy dose of self-hatred, I finally came back. My life changed, and with this second chance, I now help people rather than myself.

Using all these experiences, along with my studies into the human personality, apologetics, and theology, I write to purposefully guide others from making my mistakes. Every post originates from my journal, every insight a hard lesson learned, join me on this journey into living for Christ.

This is my personal blog, which I retooled into a Christian Lifestyle blog, which has archives stretching back five years. I work with an editor, Nay Merrill. Nay has freelanced for over a year here. The blog’s focus is following my journey as I ‘seek first God’s kingdom and His righteousness’, and what it means to follow Christ in the 21st century.

What Is This About?

I write about life as a follower of Jesus; digging deep and communicating in-depth about Christ and living img_8884for him, answering questions with analytical insight that pierces deep. I also occasionally write about what I’m learning from my reading. For a list of past books that made a mark in my life check out my recommended reading page Equipping the Saints.

My goal is to purposefully guide you to a thoughtful Christianity where you can stand assertively stand for Christ. This blog is for those who are unsure and want to live for more, and not sure how. It’s for those who want to go deeper. If you’re curious about Christianity, living it, proclaiming it, defending it, and growing in Christ then follow my journey in Christ. Come along as we do this.

I post three times a week, Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. On Fridays, I post part of the Learning Under Jesus series, which is a chronological walk through the Gospels told in a first-person narrative.

Every third Wednesday is a post from the Simplified Systematic Theology series where we look at Christian doctrines in a Question and Answer format. 

The content will steadily keep coming. So you don’t miss anything you can subscribe or follow my Twitter or Facebook page. To keep up with what I am reading then you can friend me on Goodreads.

Most Popular Posts

If you’re new to my site then you may want to start with my most popular posts. Here are my Top Ten.

  1. The Saga of Squiggles (Part two of the story about our second miscarriage)
  2. Is It Easy To Be Evil (A college professor discovers the evil in the heart of man)
  3. In The Name of Jesus (Looking at evil done in Jesus’ name)
  4. The Day Ronin Acknowledged God As His Shogun (My testimony)
  5. Disabled 38 Years Until One Sabbath; Learning Under Jesus (Jesus Heals)
  6. Squiggles; The Unexpected Gift (Part one of the story about our second miscarriage)
  7. Are You The Messiah; Learning Under Jesus (Is Jesus the Messiah?)
  8. Woman At The Well; Learning Under Jesus (Jesus deals with an outcast)
  9. Who Let Her In Here; Learning Under Jesus (Jesus, a sinful woman, and the forgiveness)
  10. The Mindset of Christ and What It Means To Us (How can we have the mind of Christ)

You can also check my blog’s archives in the Past Thoughts sidebar on the right or use the search function.

A Ronin’s Journey (The Cliff Notes)

I’ve always been an avid reader since I learned how. However, in 2010 the writing bug bit me after Thorin suggested a group-writing project. That project became Howls from the Wolfpack in 2011. A nineteen-author compilation that centers on the Wolf Mentality. To launch it I founded Abyss Press, my self-publishing platform.

This blog was the simmering brew of my thoughts on the wolf mentality, fitness, the Primal Blueprint, politics, history, and rebuilding oneself. From that, I put together my first solo book, Growls of a Wolf, the last copies of that are offered by Hardcore Clothing in the future.

Then in 2013, tragedy struck my family, turning our world upside down.

This blog became my therapist in a sense after that. I would write in a grief journal, gather insights, and expand them in an essay on here. It became my current book project titled A Ronin’s Journey; the Road to Redemption. An introspective and analytical pattern that still holds today as fuel for my posts.

In 2014, I gave my life to Christ. Since then I have Baptismexplored what it means to follow him. During that two-year span, I became a co-owner of Wicked Jester Clothing and retired from it in 2015.

In 2015 I released a short book titled Discovering You; How To Find Out What Makes You Tick. I looked at my introspective journey over the years and analyzed it; putting it into a systematic form for those as curious about self-discovery as I am.

It’s a style I carry over into my Christian life. Using the knowledge from my search inside, I purposely use it along with in-depth analysis to help people. Whether it’s evidential apologetics, philosophical questions, teaching the practicality of following Jesus, sharing my own mistakes so no one else does the same thing; I try my best to help with penetrating advice and careful reasoning.

Personal Info

I’ve been married to my wife Casey for six years. We currently have no kids though we treat our three dogs as if they are our kids. We live outside of Little Rock, Arkansas.

In my free time, I enjoy reading, writing, and spending time with my friends. On the weekends, I work with the homeless along with my wife with the church’s ministry. I work in hospitality on Sunday mornings. Saturday evenings I’m with First NLR’s Deaf Church in various capacities or working with GriefShare and attend First Assembly in North Little Rock.

My Contact Information

You can contact me or follow me on Twitter or like my Facebook page. Please note: Abyss Press is my self-publishing platform, not a traditional publishing firm.


This is my personal blog. The opinions I express here do not necessarily represent my employer RheinChemie Additives or FirstNLR.

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